Pirouette my lovely muse
Turn about for me
On this axis
Mountain top
You were blind but now I am
Give to me another pose
But spin for all to see
The music that is burning
Your life I have to choose
The pit 'to which I fling you
In all your beauty goes
I feel for you sweet muse
Your life is not your own
Such illusion granted 
To keep you on your toes
None is real none is real
Declares your mouth 
Declares your hands
Declares your ears
Declares your eyes
Declares your nose
Declares your soul
Tragedy reveals to you 
The image that you sought
Timeless knells of bells and visions that you wrought
Heavens upwards and surface fractures below
The carried weight of muses that spin on and on
 Upon the tip of a needle
It is all for naught
My hat's off to you and perhaps a sock also
Keep spinning lovely pirouette
Be the wanted and beguiled
Be the frail and be the wild
burden that you bear
Which is why I turn the key

- Melanie Davis July 29th 2015

  

Ballet dancer. Harry M. Rhoads, photographer. Harry M. Rhoads Photograph Collection, Western History/Genealogy Department, Denver Public Library, Library of Congress.

For the love of the heavens
Your bodies they entrance me
Reveling in your reflection back to me
Waiting to be washed in silvery light
But only in small amounts flickering
From the distance that I cannot count
Be your many and varied kind
I wish upon you my hopes and dreams for a better tomorrow
I sleep all the better at night watching the heavens 'til my eyes drop closed
With visions of you shining in my mind...
Stars

Melanie Davis - 6/11/2015
Art by William Shackleton, The Polar Star, 1920

Upon the precipice I walk
The narrow edge presses my feet
Each step a painful reminder
To my tentative stride
The edge forces me to balance
So that I do not fall 
For the fall and landing
 I do not desire a hesitant course
With every moment breathed
This walk is not new
Experience tells me where I am in it
This circuitous journey
Entering cycles
breaking some 
And remaining in some I cannot break 
Allowing myself to walk forward 
without the hesitant step that holds back the next one   
  No a balance must be struck 
 Where I walk without arms spread wide
When I place my foot upon the edge and though pain might be part
So too is satisfaction
 That is equally part pleasure for walking at all

Melanie Davis 4 / 7 / 2015

Where I Am.

 I won't leave someone wondering
Because I'll say and stand where I stand
To leave no doubt.
I do not speak my mind to make one question my sanity,
I speak it to show I am sane. 
I think and I think and I think 
and there is no question at the end sometimes for me
Because the answer has shown itself true.
Like a giant spotlight of Reason
Poured on the bullshit and rhetoric,
Leaving the truth in stark clarity
Naked for anyone with open eyes to see.
I can only be naive for so long,
Laying hope out to be trampled on,
After that I become a warrior and not the one to be pissed upon.
- Melanie Davis 09 / 30 / 2014

Seasonal Visitors

I hear the gentle rain
Mixed into the sounds of downpour
As a glistening refrain
Soaking through the ground floor
Walking amongst the freshly unbent boughs
Amid green carpets and  newly minted sprouts
My newest companion Spring awakens all from drowse
Thus erasing sleepy questions and doubts
No more the forest sleeps
I am thawed out and nimble once again
To jump with joyous bounds and leaps
All due to op'ning the door to my d'main
Not drawn within but led without
To witness growth and rebirth
My devotion to Spring's arrival devout
Of the Great and Glorious blossoming of the earth
A season so quickly comes and goes
Being so easy to befriend
This cycle that begins at Winter's close
Is always the balm required to mend
The welcome energy anew
Accrues my praises
Though Spring dances right through
With a happy heart I embrace Spring's phases




























I hobble to the door to see what's there
Upon it's opening wide
Catching scent of Autumn's air
My step, now a stride
To move away off my sunbleach'd porch
Grabbing the leaf nearest me t'was downward cast
Raising it like a dazzling torch
It shines it's red delight at last
So here it is, the proof I seek
Of Autumn's short presence
The telltale sign of end of Summer's peak
In my desirous pleasance
Noticed I a turning of the leaf left it's mark yet
Upon the landscape that surrounds
I trail with this season I met
Walking with it all the days upon the grounds
I have seen Autumn before
Each confluent year
Meeting me at my door
And I am always here
Greeting the Seasons Four

 - Melanie Davis September 16th, 2014.

I saw you tonight
Dancing on the grass
You enjoying the music
With every blessed inch of your being
I rejoiced to see it
My heart was full to see your arms stretched or swinging in time to the music
To see you spin or twirl
To jump to sway 
I enjoyed the smile upon your face
The smile that came out of you 
Not in response to another
But because it manifested
beautifully there
My gratitude to you for the earthly gift
Of watching you dance
The worries of the world away
For just the time that the songs were sung
I watched you dance and my soul felt it with you
I honor your energy
You offering to the world
In the moments of delight
These are the moments I love
As I walk this path
To watch you take the time to dance on yours

By Melanie Davis  8/28/14

The Systematic Smack Down of Learning Christian ideas with Watered Down Faith Teaching or A Really Crappy Bible Study Experience (take your pick)

Let me start this posting with a point made by Thomas Paine.

 "The setters-up, therefore, and the advocates of the Christian system of faith could not but foresee that the continually progressive knowledge that man would gain, by the aid of science, of the power and wisdom of God, manifested in the structure of the universe and in all the works of Creation, would militate against, and call into question, the truth of their system of faith; and therefore it became necessary to their purpose to cut learning down to a size less dangerous to their project, and this they effected by restricting the idea of learning to the dead study of dead languages." -Excerpt from Thomas Paine's The Age of Reason*

I remember going to a bible study once.  It was extremely frustrating.  I was asked to study for that week's homework the importance of God's name : one of which is Jehovah (it was listed as one of the names).  Oh man did I learn so much after studying for a week and then coming to share what I learned. What I found was the erroneous use of Jehovah and that it means something entirely different**.  Now keep in mind this study was prompted by a book used for the purpose of the study to be used with laypeople,  or people without in depth knowledge of theology (read: watered down for the masses). 

 Being that I am a curious person I tend to do research on a very different level that many.  I tend to dig a little deeper.  I look for the roots.  That was when I discovered that many Christians are erroneously calling "God" - "Jehovah" according to more than one source out there who are actually well versed in the Hebrew language.  Oh I kept reading and learned that actual scholars, who do not tend to water their study down for the masses, expect people to understand and to keep up mentally. I shared this information.  I was smacked down hard and fast when I brought the knowledge forward to the group.  I was told it does not matter and it is about "the way we say it", and that if we say it with love that defines it.  Really?  I am since careful who I let spout Christian theology at me.  I have heard church leaders, fellow Christians, people who say they abide by Christian beliefs speak so much regurgitated teachings yet be the hardest on those who find truth and out of their own arrogance expect others to blindly follow half truths and poorly understood theology.  Who are these people that create these study materials, do they not expect someone to have independent thought? Or do they just expect that if the real questions are brought up that don't "fit" that they will be smacked down. Mine was. And knowing this I am not the last nor the first to do so, this is a frustration and a testament to the fact that there is for sure an altogether unhealthy but relied upon system in place with few to acknowledge it.  

Am I calling out Christians?  Not as a whole, I am calling out the System of Christian (and other dogmatic hair splitting religions) teaching that defines for others in this way that refuses to allow for independent thought, that System which is trying to stop people from finding truth and true meaning in their walk of faith to the point of throwing the baby out with the bathwater, as the saying goes. 

 I am also calling out "teachers and leaders"  who get so locked in to easy theology, sorry but it does nobody a favor. I don't know if I am remembering a quote or what but this piece of wisdom comes to my mind, "A real teacher has as many questions as the student."  To equalized?  Truth is we can try our best, I hope people who say they are teachers and leaders are truly understanding that only the best should ever be taught, and who determines the best?  You see it will never end with more answers but with more questions. 

So you see, dear reader, it is troubling to me that I let myself take to heart the ignorance of blind acceptance and somehow attribute it to the idea that my understanding was not being somehow enough.  I walked into what I thought was supposed to be study but it turned out being a "you will learn this only this way" and this is rampant in the Christian world based upon my experiences, for this was not the first time.  Cognitive dissonance is alive and well there, as well as the "Only ask questions that are approved" or the "God fits in this box only" or "Let me give you countless platitudes so that we don't have to discuss truth" ways.  

I have since left this system of learning behind me, and gladly.  Does it mean I know it all or have things figured out perfectly according to my faith?  No.  It means I have more questions, but also I am still wading through the answers I have found that resonate within me.  The experience that I shared about, well, it happens so often and that is just not ok.  Be wary of those who expect anyone to just blindly believe something, I had to learn that so that I could help myself and my children.  I don't have a word for what I believe and I am happy to say so.  I refuse to believe that I must do so and I challenge anyone who says I must, because the truth is... I DON'T.    

Bottom line is when you find truth, share it, just make sure sure it isn't so prepackaged like processed foods where the real nutrition was lost long ago.  Find the roots as best you can.  

My additional point is that for anyone of any faith you have have to be willing to face the fact that many people are unwilling to do the work necessary to really understand what they are seeing when they study.  Which is why I love the wisdom of LeVar Burton from PBS' s Reading Rainbow "But Hey, don't take my word for it." I would rather face questions than slack minded obeisance as it pertains to the idea of faith.  

This posting is about my experience, it is not open for debating whether or not "God" or the idea of "God" exists.  That is losing my point and I will not engage in any comment doing so.

I hope whomever reads this will have a good day and I appreciate your time to consider my thoughts.
Peace out! 
Mel

*  Thomas's Paine's Age of Reason
** See this source about the name of Jehovah being used incorrectly.  or copy and paste the URL http://www.yaiy.org/literature/IsHisName.html
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